Round 2 (what a journey this has been)

My worst fear?

I actually have a lot of fears. I'll just tell you guys about 3 of my biggest fears though. My first fear is gaining weight. You can say I'm thin or that I'm crazy or even that I might have a eatting disorder, but I'd have to disagree. I use to weigh over 200 pounds. I'm not quiet sure how I lost the "LBS", but peer pressure, trying to fit in and be liked was what lead me to the rapid weight loss. What people will do to fit in... crazy I know! People tell me thats a sign of an eatting disorder, but I wouldn't consider myself one.

Another fear I have deals with amphibians, arachnids, incests, reptiles, sharks, crocodiles, mice, etc. I've seen enough movies and TV shows such as Andaconda, Snakes On A Plane, Jaws, Lake Placid, Arachnophobia, Fear Factor, etc. to know that these are just CREEPY!! I mean they just prey on you. I'm itching and squirming just thinking about it! Have you ever seen they way they watch you? This is going to sound bad, but if a spider or bug is in my room I usually yell for my mom or someone to kill it. I can't even do that because I'm afraid that it will jump or attack me. If no one is home then I walk away and close the doors, windows, vents so it can't escape and follow me. You might think I have quiet an imagination, but I'm not taking NO chances!

And my last fear that I'll share with you guys is that I'm afraid of death. I'n not sure if it because you leave behind loved ones or if its because your life went to waste and was left unfinished. Or maybe its because its the end for those who die? All I know is I really get freaked out about this. This is always on my mind. Lifes too short to take for granted. Thats why I live by the motto "live your life to the fullest cause you never no what tomorrow will bring."

How do you think you would react if you were forced to confront the fear?

I'm not going to BS you and say I would be fine with confronting these fears because I know I will never over come these fears. I might sound like a big wussy and I totally agree! My first reaction would be a jaw dropping face. Then I'd say "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" Then I'd most likely get light headed and dizzy. Then I'd get nervous and start to shake which you'd be able to hear my teeth chitter (or is it chatter).. now if this were on a Real World/Road Rules challenge this would be something that would really test me. Obviously I wouldn't get to experience the death part, but I'm sure they'd make me do something where I'm barried alive. I mean come on that REAL WORLD for you!

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