Round 3 blog numero 1

ehhh this is gonna be like never ending! Well here goes...

*How do you handle conflicts?

Well my tactic for handling conflicts is usually to just brush them off like nothing. That may be a good or bad thing, but I try not to worry about things that I can't control. On the other hand, the things I can control, well I try my best to fix them. I usually ask my mom what I should do to deal with the situation or my best friend because I know they will give me nothing but honesty. I think you will come across a lot of problems in life, but there's no need to fret and let them bring you down.

*Do you feel that your approach in effective? Why or why not?

I would say yes and no. It depends on the type of conflict it is. Usually if I have a problem I fix it right then and there if I can. I don't like having negative things on my back. It's better to just forget about it if you can or fix it fast, than to have it dragging you down. I believe my tactics are effective though because my conflicts leave just as quickly as they arrive.

*What if the biggest problem you face?

The biggest problem I face is my future. In my mind I know what I want, but I always seem to let things get in the way. I'm afraid I may never get where I need to be. I'm 20 years old and have a good head on my shoulders, but these walls just keep popping up, getting in my way, and I'm just having a hard time getting over them. I have so many dreams and ambitions! I just want to be someone who makes a difference in life! I hope one day I can overcome these obstacles and finally be happy with where I am.

*Describe your childhood and home?

Well I pretty much answered this in my parental blog, but I'll say it again. My childhood wasn't your typical one. I had barbies, birthday parties, and played with my friends like any other typical little girl, but what I remember the most is the hate and evil that resided in my house. They say when you're an adult a lot of times you don't really remember every detail from your childhood, but I do. How could I forget? All the beatings my mom and I took. All the times the cops and neighbors would come to our house trying to get my dad locked up for what he was doing. All the times my mom and I tried to leave my dad, but couldn't. All the times my mom nearly died, but somehow stayed strong. I don't talk about this because I want people to feel sorry for me. I share this with y'all because I know I'm not the only one out there who went through all the things I went through. I want those like me to know that they are not alone, that I know what it feels like to have grown up in a home with domestic violence every single day. It's not something I would wish upon anyone, but it has made me an incredibly stronger and better person because of it. To those who grew up in a loving, happy home, well, be thankful and cherish all the wonderful memories you have because nobody can ever take those away from you. :)

*Describe a major issue or event that has affected your family?

The most life changing event was when my mom and I left my father. We moved to Houston when I was 10 years old and the Lord has just blessed us with so much. Of course we struggle sometimes but who doesn't! This move not only affected us, but my entire family. ALL of my family was in Pearsall (small town where I grew up) and when we left my dad, we left everyone behind. We had to start new, from scratch. It was hard at first, being in a big city not knowing really anyone. I would have to say though, this move was the best decision we ever made. It has made my mom and I stronger and more independent than ever. Sometimes you gotta make sacrifices in order to get the best outta life. I believe everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for each and every one of us! :)

****Side 1 is finished, please flip the tape to hear side 2! ;)

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Mommy, Me and The Devil in Disguise

So I figured it was about time I post my round 2 blog...here goes!

All my life it has always been my mom and I. I am an only child, blessed from the moment I was born. My mom had severe complications when she had me and died for 12 minutes. The good Lord above decided that I needed her and brought her back to me. After my birth, she couldn't have any more kids because complications during my birth destroyed her body and she had to have her tubes tied. My mother is my best friend and my angel sent from God!!! She has given me anything I ever wanted and more.
I grew up in a small town in south texas called Pearsall. My dad was 21 when I was born and my mom 31. My dad was still an immature kid when he met my mom. At their wedding, he showed up drunk and vomitted all over himself throughout the whole thing. What a weddning huh? Their relationship was wrong from the moment they said "I do!" My mom always says, "The only reason your father was brought into my life was so that I could have you!" So TRUE!!
From the time I was born to the age or 10, I saw my father beat my mom everyday. Sometimes twice a day and sometimes to the point that she couldn't breathe and ended up in the hospital because he wanted to kill her. The cops were at our house everyday, LITERALLY!! He cheated on her everyday that they were married with every whore in town and would come home in the middle of the night and beat my mom and myself. I would always try to jump in and hit him and scream and he would throw me across the room and hit me. I always say that he was possessed by evil because when you looked at the man all you saw was evil in this big black hole. I wish I had good memories with him, but I don't because all the bad just overpower any good times there might have been. He's was the devil disguised as my father.
When I was 10 years old my mom finally got the courage to leave him. We were absolutely terrifed that he would come after us and kill us. Thankfully he didn't and accepted that fact that we left. Since then, it's been just my mommy and me! My father and I don't get along AT ALL. He's an alcoholic who only cares about himself and trys to live out his dreams through me. Sorry dad but I got my own dreams!! He's very absent in my life. He's has this mindset that it is MY responsibility to keep in touch with him and that it is MY responsibility to see him and spend time with him. (Um aren't you the FATHER fool!!) He's still the childish immature person he was 20 years ago. We continuously bump heads and a part of me will always hate him because he destroyed my mom and I and still trys to. He always criticizes me about EVEYTHING because nothing I do is ever good enough for him.
On the other hand, my mom and I have the most amazing relationship!! She is my best friend and the most amazing person you could ever meet. I tell her EVERYTHING! She's a counselor so she always helps me when I have problems. She has the biggest warmest heart EVER and after all my dad put her through she is still sane! I mean sure when she thinks about the past she feels that hurt and anger again, but I always remind her of how strong she is and how much better of a person she is than him. Sure we struggle sometimes, but that's life!! As long as we have each other we'll be alright!

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blaaaaahhhh

so i posted another video! it was actually my original intro video but it was too long and I couldn't get it to upload! so i've been editing parts of it out for the longest and trying to get it smaller...come to find out I just had to change the save format!! I'm such a DUMBASS! so thats an edited video with a little more about me!

peace

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AHHHHHHHHHHH....

My LAAZZZZY ass got a job!! sweeet! I am now an employee at American Eagle Outfitters! Which I am very excited about because that is my FAVORITE store and I get a pretty mean discount!! I start sunday...kinda nervous because I haven't had a job since I was like 16 and I'm now 20! whatev this bitch is gonna kick ass workin there!

I'm actually kinda surprised they hired me because one of the interview questions they asked me was...WHAT'S YOU'RE MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT? and well without thinking I told them about my first days as a college student and having to run from the cops and being carried by a 500lb guy thru the mud and me partaking in some illegal activity(don't get too excited it was just underage drinking)...but I guess they liked that I kept it REAL!!! The story is a lot of fun to listen to but I'll save it for the next video or blog requirements!

That's all for now! Peace out BITCHES!! <3

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i'm leaving on a jet plane....

...and i'll be back on monday!

My grandma had a heartache and we are going to see her. So, I will be back on Monday! Just letting you know if you don't see your daily votes! When I get back, I will return everyone votes. Thanks for the love! keep the votes coming!

<3 eboni

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FREAK!

sooo...had a job interview today! I left freaked out by the guy who interviewed me! First of all, when you interview someone you're supposed to look at their face, not their BOOBS! Second of all, this guy was soo fascinated with my damn tongue ring he forgot to ask me stuff that mattered! The guy was like 40 yrs old, 4'11" looked like he hadn't gotten any in years! i kind felt bad for me! He was like " do you think you could take your tongue ring out if I hired you?" and i was like "Yea, I just don't want it to close!" Then he goes, "Well I don't want you to think that I think it's bad because I really like it" and I was like "OK?" and I was like "Well could I maybe put a clear one in?"and he goes "ya that'd probably be ok!" and he again he goes " Well I really like it, I don't want you to think that I think its bad, because I really really like it!".....

I mean FOOL COME ON!! what's the deal! what happened to be PROFESSIONAL! Meanwhile, he's asking me things and look at my boobs going "uh huh...uh huh...ya...thats good"

How ronch is that! Don't think I'll be working there!

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la dee da

love dumb bitches
i love it when people lie
i love it when people backstab you
i love it when people steal from you and then try to turn things around on you to make you look like the dumb bitch!
i looooove it when people talk shit to you on MYSPACE but would NEVER have the balls to say it to your face, because they know I'd beat their ass!

being TOTALLY SARCASTIC!

...I FUCKING HATE DUMB BITCHES!!!!!!

had to vent sorry!

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simply me!

Hey!! Wow I'm so excited to be on here! Where to start, lets see! First of all, I just moved back home from college. I went to Texas A&M University-College Station and am now back home in Houston, Tx. My friends would probably say I'm the mom of the group. I love helping others and taking care of the people I love. Some would call me crazy or nuts because sometimes I just don't give a darn! I do what I do!
My best traits would probably be that I'm trustworthy, honest, loving, helpful, smart, and ambitous. My dream is to one day be a successful recording artist and if that doesn't work out I am currently going to school to be a doctor! So, we shall see! My worst traits would probably be that I like to party and get crazy a little too much. I also can be very opinionated and I may come off to some as a bitch! I am also easily distracted, like BIG TIME!! I just can't stay focused on one thing for too long because I start thinking about someting else. It's a bad habit!
Overall though, I am fun person to be around! I would call myself good company for sure. Hey I'm young and livin my life to the fullest! There's nothing wrong with that right?!

Much Love
-eboni

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