I'm bored, so here's more about me!

I was born in Georgetown, Ohio to two loving parents and with two big sisters, Ashley and Kelly (Kelly is my half-sister). When I was two years old, my parents divorced and I always had difficulties with that. I never felt "normal" growing up, like something was missing. Adding to that pain, my parents have never really gotten along and are at times quite brutal towards each other verbally. My mother gave us three girls to our fathers when I was about four. This was particularly difficult for me because I was super close to my mother and I rarely got to see her after that (every other weekend at the best). My father then got married(and is still married to my stepmom) and later had two sons, Travis and Steven. I was very close to my brothers growing up and I regret losing that close relationship. I was basically raised by my stepmom because my dad was always at work. I did not get along with my stepmother and I think she recented me and having to take care of us. I have always been passive and kind of an easy target so my stepmother was really mean toward me. Eventually I just couldn't deal with how miserable I was and my sister and I went through a six month, really uncomfortable and traumatizing custody battle. I went to court during spring break of eighth grade and I was ordered to pack up everything I owed and leave to live with my mom. I didn't even get to say goodbye to any of my friends. It was really difficult because my dad felt betrayed and I still dont' think he understands. My mom and I have a very good relationship but it was difficult when I was in high school because I was pretty rebellious. My father and I are definitely working on our relationship. A little bit before I moved in with my mother, she got married to my stepdad who already had two sons and a daughter. So all together I have seven brothers and sisters and six nieces and nephews. Family is very, very important to me.
I think I went through a very rebellious, finding myself stage in my life until pretty recently. I felt very unhappy about things that have gone on in my life and how I felt about myself so I would find ways to numb myself. Not until about a year and a half ago, when I met my boyfriend Jeremy,did I realize how self-destructive I had become. I always thought I was so in control of my life, but I realized I was just lying to myself. I think that now I am even more fun to be around and to party with because I have let go of my past and no one wants to happy with someone who ends up crying at the end of the night. I think that I would make a good asset to the Real World because I know myself so well and who I am. Until you know who you are, you're no one.

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