I F*CKIN HATE IT!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

my biggest fears.....well, i have big fears, and then fears that im sure i can get over.

my BIGGEST fear, hands down, is the bug with 8 legs. of course u kno what that is. the reason y i described it instead of sayin the name is b/c thats how afraid i am of it. yea, i kno its crazy, but theres just some fears that ppl have that they react certain ways when confronted with it. and me being confronted means some1 talkin about it, not even seeing it. unfortunately i was confronted with this fear last night, right b4 i was goin to bed. i see the bug on my wall and it was HUGE!!!!! it took a half hr for my mom to kill it. i freaked out so much i started crying. i didnt wanna sleep in my room, even tho the bug was dead, i couldnt stand staying in there. and anything i saw the entire day that resemble any body part of that bug freaked me out. im getting nervous even typing this. yea...THATS how bad my fear is! and it sucks that my backyard is like all forest.

another big fear is me dying. im paranoid with alot. now, i wouldnt say i live in the ghetto, but it aint very safe where i am neither. ppl gettin murdered over a pair of shoes, ppl gettin killed by stray bullets from some1 fighting over a pair of shoes, gettin shot cuz u have on nice clothes....yea, ppl r crazy. and i dont want that to happen to me. i kno our time to leave will just happen, but im afraid to see it. this also goes for my family

3rd fear (damn i got alot to say lol) is airplanes. i dont like being on them, i dont even like lookin at them fly. makes me think about too much. (nations capital....9/11....attack on the pentagon...yea, im sure u got it now). i live near an airport and an AFB, so that doesnt help much neither. i was 3 planes in august and it didnt help me get over my fear one bit

ok, fears that i can get over....those pics that sketch artist draw of criminals. idk y, but them thangs is scary. bridges, dont like drivin over them, mainly the ones over water. drowning...black ppl cant swim!! lol i think im done with my fears

as far as being confronted with them...the 1st 3 i kno i cant get over. im confronted with it damn near everyday of my life and im still afraid. the other ones are more so fears that make me say "ugh, i hate that". but nuffin serious.

ok, i think this is theeeeeee longest blog i've ever written. i'll have 3 videos up within the next week. im tryna do one at my job, but idk if my boss will let me, but we'll see...VOTE FOR ME....SKINNIMINI!!!!!!

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